togetherrr

Semasa banjir baru bermula.
aku naik moto dengan husband.
from kota bharu to pengkalan chepa.
masa tu bimbang kot banjir makin teruk. Xdapat nak balik semula ke rumah di kota bharu.

Masa tu aku pikir. Its okay. As long as aku dengan husband sama2.

We will be flying out to krabi this 12 jan.
and dapat berita pasal air asia terhempas.
masa tu i told him. Its okay. Asal pegi mana2 pon together.

banjir 2014

Harini 28 dis 2014.

Banjir terburuk di kelantan.
rumah sewa naik air sampai paras dada.
yg sempat diselamatkan adelah washing machine yg diangkat ke atas meja.
Dan juga tv yg diangkut ke rumah my mom.

Yang lain insya allah da selamat tenggelam.
kedai last operasi 24 dis 2014.
maknanya da 4 hari kedai tutup.
terputus hubungan dengan pekerja.

Menumpang tidur dan kasih di rumah mak.
sepanjang banjir kuat sangat aku berjalan meredah air. Dan juga naik motor.
bimbang pon ade. Harapa baby okay2 je.

Btw ade mak tlg masak.
husband and adik2 tolong angkat brg2 dan air.
Aku goyang kaki je. Pemalas.
Dan jugak demi kepentingan baby.

Awal lagi rasanya tapi my mom cakap dah kena start minum susu.

Ambil peluang petang ni keluar beli.

Dan da siap2 pilih nama anak kalau lelaki.
seyf fadzil al-hadid.
maknanya. Pedang fadzil yang tajam.
Fadzil pulak maknanya yang utama/satu/tunggal.

Kalau baby boy.
tapi hati aku kuat rasa boy.
so..xpayahla fikir nama girl.

stroller

I just started survey for baby stroller.
actually more to gain knowledge about stroller before Buying it

Iyelah. I know nothing about stroller. Atleast kenalah buat research dulu. Pasal jenis2 semua.

Sambil2 survey tu terberkenanlah dengan design yg mcm transformer tu sbb die mcm soooo wowww.

Nama yang itu 4moms origami.
harga: around 5k

Tercekik iolls. Rasa tak sanggup atau lebih tepatnya tk mampu nk beli yg harga 5k. Tpi dah berkenan. Nnt maybe suruh sape2 yg kat uk tolong belikan. Huhuhuhu...

Pilihan atau option kedua adalah quinny moodd.
Around rm3k kebawah. Rm2k lebih da da dapat ni..
Cantik jugak cuma berat n besar sikit. Susah nk dibawa travel. For travel kena beli yg kecik muat masuk flight.

Atau.. boleh beli yg prrloved.Itulah pilihan yang paling jimat. I might be searching for 4moms origami yg preloved. Around rm3.5k da dapat kot. Kot lah kannn.

Pilih stroller ni mcm nk pilih second car. Plus ill be working everywhere mestilah nk stroller yg lightweight n easy to fold and unfold.kan???

license

Its officialllll....

I got the license to eat whatever i want.

And merengek with my husband...

Hahahahahahaha..

Dah beli yg elektronik.
puas hati dpt tengok "pregnant"

Tu pon my husband bole tanya lagi betul ke tak.. adoilaaaaa..

i need to know

I just did my forth pregnancy test.

Myyyyy..now that cheap test is showing two lines.
with one line so vague. But still!!!

Tak sabar nk tggu esok.
nk test lg.
coz seing that 2 lines is like knowing that my baby is there.

my wish for current state

I would love to conform that i have a baby in my womb now.

But maybe that little caliph is the size of pea.

Owh.. how i wish she/he is there.

Little pea please stay. Please be strong.
please hold on for mommy.
Just for a week and we will conform and daddy will agree too.

Hes just being safe. Not knowing that it might hurt you.

So. Please stay. Stay safely inside mommy's womb.

lambat

Ceritanya... dua kali cek dengan oregnancy test yang harga around rm16.

Dua line tapi line kedua mmg samar2.

Sebelum balik rumah sempat lagi tapau yang harga rm5 dua.

Balik cek guna yg rm5. Terus xde second line

So.. i hate cheap preganancy test.

Lusa nak beli yang mahal lagi. Yg digital. Puas hati nanti bila nampak die tulis pregnant.

As for now. No confirmation. Maybe yes. Maybe no. Plus. Baru lambat dua hari. Kecohhhh je..

harapan

Xtau nak berharap atau tidakkkk..

Nak berharap kot kecewa. Demnn

talk.talk

So..
i finally talk to my husband regarding where we are living.

Its too close to my ex house.
it should not be a problem  u may say so.
but we are passing in front of his house like everyday.
so. Do you expect me not to feel anything.

I told my husband that i want our house to be far from here. At first he asked me why. And i explained that i want ti be active at our village mosque. And it wont be possible if my ex and i are sharing the same mosque. The difficulties that will arrive kalau ada kematian.

At last i spoke about it to my husband.

And he nodded. I think he understand that if he is at my place..

His ex is faraway. While im passing tru his house twice a day minimum.

Do u feel me?

jodoh versi dewasa

Semalam tengah jalan2.

Dapat berita yang my sis shortliated for eagle express crea. I yang prepare her for the interview. Im confident she can make it if she follows what i tell her.

But that is not what i wanna share today.

Together withbthe job offer latter on if she makes it is a contract of 4 years without marriage.

Hubs: kalau dapat ni 4 tahunla tak kawen.

Me: semua ni jodoh. Kalau xsampai jodoh lagi xdapat pon tak kawen jugak. Kan nnti lepas 4 tahun kawen ngn orang lain.

Hubs: jodoh kan..kita tak tahu..dah kawen pon belum tentu jodoh

Me: yelah.. jodoh aturan tuhan. Kawen ni mcm orang yg tuhan hntar untuk jaga kita. Lepas dah habis jodoh. Bercerai. Kalau kekal sampai ke mati. Itulah jodoh kita. Selagi tak mati kita takkan tahu.

Hubs: yelah.. rahsia Allah.. tuhan da aturkan.

And kami pon mengangguk.

Memang. Semua laki bini akan berharap yg mereka akan ke akhir hayat. Tapi for me n my hubs. We keep it real. Die ckp yg die bukan jodoh saya dari the early days of our marriage. Selagi belum mati selagi itu kita tak tahu. Siapakah jodoh kita yang akan bersama dalam syurga.

Its not something yang kita pilih.
its something yang tuhan dah tetapkan.
Siapa yang kongi jiwa kita. Siapa jodoh kita.
insya allah dalam syurga akan bersama.

Dulu masa muda. Masa bodoh. Selalu duk cari siapa jodoh aku. Sapa jodoh aku. Tapi soalan tu dah menggambarkan yang aku ni tak faham makna jodoh.

Apa2 pun kena terima aturan Allah. Berusaha. Selalu berdoa. Semoga yang baik2 untuk semua.

forgiveness

Okay. Everybody will boast about how good their spouse are. Or maybe not.

But im soo lucky.

my husband is the most kind hearted guy.

i never saw him crying.

atleast in these 2 years i know him.

wonder if its a good thing.herm.

But i did something awfull.

He knows about it.

and he just stays quite.

deep down i know something is not right.

he knew what i did.

Then i know he is the most forgiving guy i ever know.

and that exact trait was the one that makes me cry when i first know him.

He is perfect for me. A person who makes mistakes all the time.

I screw up most of the time.

and he will be the one saying its okay.

and i can sense that he said it without grudge.

He is sooo forgiving.

i love him.

kinda girl

I used to be:

Hey. I cant sleep. My cat died.

Come pick me up.i dont care if its 2 am. Im here for you

Kinda girl. And i will always be that kinda girl

gemuk

The best thing about having a treadmill at home.

Ialah apabila ade orang tegur cakap kau gemuk.
kau boleh get home and run your heart out.
macam sekarang ni.

Untuk kali ke 5. Aku berjanji pada diri ini untuk kurus.

Herm.. stresss bile gemok. Kau pakai apa pon nampak tak lawa.

Dan self esteem kau akan automatik jadi kosong.
walaupun suami kau cakap kau kurus 1000 kali
semua tu takde guna sebab kau still tahu yang kau gemuk.

planning is tiring

Of course i should be planning for our krabi trip.
and of course i dont do that.

Currently tengah buat research for what to wear in korea.

Since we'll be going during korean winter. Which was known from its deadly cold.

And my husband akan kena asthma attack bile too cold. I just knew about thermal wear. Hettech uniqlo wear. Wearing like onions. Bla3.

Will be orderkng our winter coat from china. And will be buying all other things when we arrived there. Kirenya bile sampai beli a coat each. Then head yo hotel. Malam tu pergi shopping kat dongdaemun market. Huahuahua.

Just prepare the money.

And will be getting itenary from tajol budak gamelan. Since die da pernah pergi time winter.

Nak kena sediakan jadual for nine days.
plannye nak pusing seoul je.
Tapi maybe make time for busan and jeju island.
alang2 da sampai.. nak tengok semuaaaaa..waaaa

And the most special thing is that. It will be our first sniw together..loveeeeee