We dont know

Its 3.23 am in the morning and I just want to write.

For all my fans out there. 😂😂😂

My daughter is sleeping not so soundly.
She is having a cough
And she becomes too attached lately.
The best thing being a mommy is that she always choose mommy. Wonder if its a good thing 😁😁😁

Her first birthday is just around the corner
26th august and my husband's on 28th august.

One year has passed since i was 10cm dilated and feeling like dying. Not sure if i wanna go tru that again 😨😨😨

But Allah knows best. I want more child to send dua' for me when im gone. And to accompany me when im old.
I mean i want sons to travel with.

I have foresee my coming years..hahahaha

My husband would be busy so i would just fly to anywhere with my children. I wonder why i kept pushing my husband out of my future days. 😕😕😕

I dont know. I used to see myself being together forever.
But i guess we dont always know what we want.
Or what we dont want. What we need or what we dont need.

Anyway.....

Almost september.
Then we gonna start our vacation this year. Yahooo..

If its up to me. I would be buying flight tix like crazy but i cant book anything more than 6/7months because i might be pregnant and i dont wanna be going here n there when im 8months preggy would i???

Till next time peeps. 😘

Better but flawed

I have been fighting a lot with my husband.
More like internal fight.
Or a one sided fight.
Because he doesnt know im mad at him.😭😭😭

But basically we run a normal life.
Still joking around.
When we are in a fight with our spouse,  we always just see the bad side of them.

Today I just can't help but see his good side.

We went out to an indoor play area for child.
There was a big slide there.
And me being me just cant stand still looking at all the fun there.

I basically went mental and became one of the children there.

To my suprise. My husband did not stop me. He just laughs away when he saw me sliding down that giant slide. Or when i was jumping crazily.

Whatever i did. He just smiled at me. 😢😢😢

And i cant thanked him enough for accepting me as i am. I may be flaws and all. But he accept me and that is the most important thing.

And all our petty fights and little issues did not matter anymore. Its just a thankfull feeling to have found my better half who is proud of me.

Thank you husband.
I promise you. I will try to be a better wife in the future. Insya allah.

Bersama jaga diri

Kadang kadang bila husband spend so much time at gym.
Aku rasa sunyi and marah.
Tapi bile tengok org lain semua lepas kawen makin bam2. 

Husband pun bambam gak tapi he looks good. For a 31 years old man. 

Tq husband for taking good care of yourself.
Makes me more excited untuk kuruskan badan supaya dapat stay fit and healthy with you.. 😘😘😘

Sedar take sedar we have been married for more than 3 years. Wow. Thats an accomplishment. Orang cakap 5 tahun pertama macam2 dugaan. Its true. We fight a lot. Tapi suprisingly aku jenis yg xmelawan.

Kalau gaduh pun aku akan senyap je. N merajuk for an hour. Kalau husband xpujuk pun esok bangun pagi mesti macam xpernah merajuk pun. (So matured kan?? 😝😝😝)

We never know our limit until we are pushed to it. Nampaknya sejak kahwin ni tahap kesabaran aku sangat tinggi. Hahahaha

But ada something about my husbang yg buatkan aku xmelawan dia. Sebab since kami kawen die takde buat hal dgn perempuan lain. Xde contact tru wasap or papelah. 

Bagi aku kalau kami miskin. Xde duit. Susah. Apa2 cabaran sekalipun aku tak kesah. I will be with you forever. Tapi tolong jangan ade org ketiga.

Selama mana beliau jaga hati beliau. Macam tu jugak aku akan jaga diri aku. 😘😘😘

Lotsa love. For my husband yg masih memancing di mana pun xtaula. Pada pkul 2 pagi. Huhuhuhu 😂😂😂😂