i wanna share with you

its frustrating when you love something,
but you have no one to share it with..

exactly what i feel now.
so i share it with you guys who are reading this.

please watch goblin. the korean series.

seriously its a good and interesting story.

and share how you feel with me.

Segala yang kau tidak mahu

Aku bisa memberikanmu syurga.
Tapi kau tidak menginginkan nya dariku.

Aku bisa membuatmu bahagia.
Tapi kau tak inginkan bahagia bersamaku.

Kenapa???

If you have a wife. Janganlah suka2 pm perempuan lain tanpa hal mustahak. Atas alasan nak borak.. Rasa mcm ermmm sangat.

Especially if perempuan tu isteri orang.
Im all okay to have guy friends.
My husband pun ok. Tapi sekadar friend yang say hi now n then. Comments on fb pictures.

Bukanlah kawan yg sembang tru pm/wasap.

I prefer kalau u guys komen kt pic fb. I can reply and my husband pun boleh baca komen tu.

I just taknak sakitkan hati my husband. So sesiapa yg pm my fb especially guys mmg i takkan jawab.
My husband would not like it and i dont want to make him sad.

Im a wife first.
Sebab for time being he is my heaven.

Sebab i taknak husband i pun buat mcm tu. So it must start with me. Kalau i terjumpa chat my husband dgn perempuan lain. I tak cakap banyak.

Kemas bag tempah tiket flight ke dubai. Bye2 terus.
Kita kalau setia bagai nak rak tapi orang tak hargai memang kita xbagi muka.

Bini awak macamana?? Kalau dia tau awak mesej saya??

Justication yang berat sebelah

When I'm frustrated with my husband.  I tend to write.
But not here.  I vent out at twitter.  But sorry. My twitter is private except for only 5followers i think. 😝😝😝

So tonight i just want to reflect on whats good in our relationship.

1. Freedom

He gives me freedom. I give him freedom even sometimes it comes with nag.
- he let me fly alone with alika so i can travel and have fun with my friends.
-he let me go abroad with my friend. With or without alika.

My whole life. I never would have thought that I will marry such a great guy.

2. Limit

He states clearly my limits. I know I can't be having a personal chat routine with guys.
-he don't mind me having guy friends and commenting on Facebook.  As long as he can read it anytime he wants
-no guy should involve in my everyday routine except him.  Lols.  So sweet.

But he always by my side since we are working together 24/7. I don't need any other than him 😘😘😘

He knows im a very hard headed person. I get angry easily. But he dont get offended easily.

When im mad. He will just be quite and act like nothing happened. In 2 mins. I will be okay. And we become normal again. I dont need any pujuk moments.😁👏👏

He acts crazy with me and dont mind me being crazy around him. And thats what i love the most about my husband. I dont think i can find someone like that easily.

He lets me do what ever i want.

Wanna a holiday? Just book the flight tix darling.
Wanna have a day at home? He will go out and buy food for both of us.
Too lazy to wake up when baby cries? He will get up and prepare milk for baby and put her to sleep again.

There are so many things that he does that i dont think any other man willing to do.

Despite all he have his flaws too. Which i elaborate with frustration at twitter. Hahahahaha.

Im writing this for myself. So i can always remember the good in him. And wonder if i am good enough for him.

We dont know

Its 3.23 am in the morning and I just want to write.

For all my fans out there. 😂😂😂

My daughter is sleeping not so soundly.
She is having a cough
And she becomes too attached lately.
The best thing being a mommy is that she always choose mommy. Wonder if its a good thing 😁😁😁

Her first birthday is just around the corner
26th august and my husband's on 28th august.

One year has passed since i was 10cm dilated and feeling like dying. Not sure if i wanna go tru that again 😨😨😨

But Allah knows best. I want more child to send dua' for me when im gone. And to accompany me when im old.
I mean i want sons to travel with.

I have foresee my coming years..hahahaha

My husband would be busy so i would just fly to anywhere with my children. I wonder why i kept pushing my husband out of my future days. 😕😕😕

I dont know. I used to see myself being together forever.
But i guess we dont always know what we want.
Or what we dont want. What we need or what we dont need.

Anyway.....

Almost september.
Then we gonna start our vacation this year. Yahooo..

If its up to me. I would be buying flight tix like crazy but i cant book anything more than 6/7months because i might be pregnant and i dont wanna be going here n there when im 8months preggy would i???

Till next time peeps. 😘

Better but flawed

I have been fighting a lot with my husband.
More like internal fight.
Or a one sided fight.
Because he doesnt know im mad at him.😭😭😭

But basically we run a normal life.
Still joking around.
When we are in a fight with our spouse,  we always just see the bad side of them.

Today I just can't help but see his good side.

We went out to an indoor play area for child.
There was a big slide there.
And me being me just cant stand still looking at all the fun there.

I basically went mental and became one of the children there.

To my suprise. My husband did not stop me. He just laughs away when he saw me sliding down that giant slide. Or when i was jumping crazily.

Whatever i did. He just smiled at me. 😢😢😢

And i cant thanked him enough for accepting me as i am. I may be flaws and all. But he accept me and that is the most important thing.

And all our petty fights and little issues did not matter anymore. Its just a thankfull feeling to have found my better half who is proud of me.

Thank you husband.
I promise you. I will try to be a better wife in the future. Insya allah.

Bersama jaga diri

Kadang kadang bila husband spend so much time at gym.
Aku rasa sunyi and marah.
Tapi bile tengok org lain semua lepas kawen makin bam2. 

Husband pun bambam gak tapi he looks good. For a 31 years old man. 

Tq husband for taking good care of yourself.
Makes me more excited untuk kuruskan badan supaya dapat stay fit and healthy with you.. 😘😘😘

Sedar take sedar we have been married for more than 3 years. Wow. Thats an accomplishment. Orang cakap 5 tahun pertama macam2 dugaan. Its true. We fight a lot. Tapi suprisingly aku jenis yg xmelawan.

Kalau gaduh pun aku akan senyap je. N merajuk for an hour. Kalau husband xpujuk pun esok bangun pagi mesti macam xpernah merajuk pun. (So matured kan?? 😝😝😝)

We never know our limit until we are pushed to it. Nampaknya sejak kahwin ni tahap kesabaran aku sangat tinggi. Hahahaha

But ada something about my husbang yg buatkan aku xmelawan dia. Sebab since kami kawen die takde buat hal dgn perempuan lain. Xde contact tru wasap or papelah. 

Bagi aku kalau kami miskin. Xde duit. Susah. Apa2 cabaran sekalipun aku tak kesah. I will be with you forever. Tapi tolong jangan ade org ketiga.

Selama mana beliau jaga hati beliau. Macam tu jugak aku akan jaga diri aku. 😘😘😘

Lotsa love. For my husband yg masih memancing di mana pun xtaula. Pada pkul 2 pagi. Huhuhuhu 😂😂😂😂