makin lama. makin banyak benda berubah

march 2017

wow. time flies.

tahun ni kami akan sambut annyversary wedding 4tahun.
sekejap je masa berlalu.
alika pun dah nak masuk 2 tahun.

i think this is the longest time im being loyal in a relationship. 😝😝

makin lama kahwin.
makin sayang kat suami.
makin bertambah berat badan.
makin pndai masak. (perahsan 😂)
makin pandai sabar.

yang tak berubah. masih prmalas nk buat lejer umah.
nasib baik dpt suami yg memahami.

reality after marriage

so....
my husband is out to the gym again tonight..
even our child is not home. he is not home too.

wow. things just change after marriage you know.
things that you planned before marriage just change.

we used to wanna be with each other 24/7
but now we or him exactly.
have so many things in mind without including me.

i wanted to go to the gym with him.
but he is a husband who dont wanna show off his wife.

well. we cant never be like those gym couples then.

wonder if its a good or a bad thing.

i guess ill just workout from home tonite. aja!

i wanna share with you

its frustrating when you love something,
but you have no one to share it with..

exactly what i feel now.
so i share it with you guys who are reading this.

please watch goblin. the korean series.

seriously its a good and interesting story.

and share how you feel with me.

Segala yang kau tidak mahu

Aku bisa memberikanmu syurga.
Tapi kau tidak menginginkan nya dariku.

Aku bisa membuatmu bahagia.
Tapi kau tak inginkan bahagia bersamaku.

Kenapa???

If you have a wife. Janganlah suka2 pm perempuan lain tanpa hal mustahak. Atas alasan nak borak.. Rasa mcm ermmm sangat.

Especially if perempuan tu isteri orang.
Im all okay to have guy friends.
My husband pun ok. Tapi sekadar friend yang say hi now n then. Comments on fb pictures.

Bukanlah kawan yg sembang tru pm/wasap.

I prefer kalau u guys komen kt pic fb. I can reply and my husband pun boleh baca komen tu.

I just taknak sakitkan hati my husband. So sesiapa yg pm my fb especially guys mmg i takkan jawab.
My husband would not like it and i dont want to make him sad.

Im a wife first.
Sebab for time being he is my heaven.

Sebab i taknak husband i pun buat mcm tu. So it must start with me. Kalau i terjumpa chat my husband dgn perempuan lain. I tak cakap banyak.

Kemas bag tempah tiket flight ke dubai. Bye2 terus.
Kita kalau setia bagai nak rak tapi orang tak hargai memang kita xbagi muka.

Bini awak macamana?? Kalau dia tau awak mesej saya??

Justication yang berat sebelah

When I'm frustrated with my husband.  I tend to write.
But not here.  I vent out at twitter.  But sorry. My twitter is private except for only 5followers i think. 😝😝😝

So tonight i just want to reflect on whats good in our relationship.

1. Freedom

He gives me freedom. I give him freedom even sometimes it comes with nag.
- he let me fly alone with alika so i can travel and have fun with my friends.
-he let me go abroad with my friend. With or without alika.

My whole life. I never would have thought that I will marry such a great guy.

2. Limit

He states clearly my limits. I know I can't be having a personal chat routine with guys.
-he don't mind me having guy friends and commenting on Facebook.  As long as he can read it anytime he wants
-no guy should involve in my everyday routine except him.  Lols.  So sweet.

But he always by my side since we are working together 24/7. I don't need any other than him 😘😘😘

He knows im a very hard headed person. I get angry easily. But he dont get offended easily.

When im mad. He will just be quite and act like nothing happened. In 2 mins. I will be okay. And we become normal again. I dont need any pujuk moments.😁👏👏

He acts crazy with me and dont mind me being crazy around him. And thats what i love the most about my husband. I dont think i can find someone like that easily.

He lets me do what ever i want.

Wanna a holiday? Just book the flight tix darling.
Wanna have a day at home? He will go out and buy food for both of us.
Too lazy to wake up when baby cries? He will get up and prepare milk for baby and put her to sleep again.

There are so many things that he does that i dont think any other man willing to do.

Despite all he have his flaws too. Which i elaborate with frustration at twitter. Hahahahaha.

Im writing this for myself. So i can always remember the good in him. And wonder if i am good enough for him.

We dont know

Its 3.23 am in the morning and I just want to write.

For all my fans out there. 😂😂😂

My daughter is sleeping not so soundly.
She is having a cough
And she becomes too attached lately.
The best thing being a mommy is that she always choose mommy. Wonder if its a good thing 😁😁😁

Her first birthday is just around the corner
26th august and my husband's on 28th august.

One year has passed since i was 10cm dilated and feeling like dying. Not sure if i wanna go tru that again 😨😨😨

But Allah knows best. I want more child to send dua' for me when im gone. And to accompany me when im old.
I mean i want sons to travel with.

I have foresee my coming years..hahahaha

My husband would be busy so i would just fly to anywhere with my children. I wonder why i kept pushing my husband out of my future days. 😕😕😕

I dont know. I used to see myself being together forever.
But i guess we dont always know what we want.
Or what we dont want. What we need or what we dont need.

Anyway.....

Almost september.
Then we gonna start our vacation this year. Yahooo..

If its up to me. I would be buying flight tix like crazy but i cant book anything more than 6/7months because i might be pregnant and i dont wanna be going here n there when im 8months preggy would i???

Till next time peeps. 😘