May

Almost May. Almost my birthday.
Everytime my birthday approaches. My heart aches.

I have always wanted a good one but i guess im not loved enuff kot to get that..huhhuuuu

Even this year. I dont know what i want.
Sometimes i just feel so swollen inside.

I just wanna be somewhere alone during my birthday.
So i dont have to give awkward responses to a birthday wish.

I dont tell people my birthday date.
I rather people not know.

I know im sad. And pathethic.
And i think i know what in others heart.
But then i do not know.

Im just living in my own world.
And i think i will go on with that.